Chasing The Possible...

The question follows me, or I chase it perhaps. Scanning the horizon...

...what could happen, might happen, what is possible?

And often lately, I pull up Instagram of a woman named Rebecca Legon. She is climbing mountains, doing yoga poses, gazing intently into the camera. Sighing, I take a second and a third look; for yes, she offers us a vision.

You see, Rebecca has an above the knee amputation. It took her awhile to get to mountain climbing and that steely gaze - she was an alcoholic before she accepted her body. So she suffered and faced tough stuff and came out of it asking...

...what is possible?

For sure, it can be a vexing question...it calls us to some sort of action. To endeavor, attempt, try something...and sometimes that feels, well, like too, too, too much work.

Right?

And some days, it's all we can do to fall out of bed, put our feet on the floor and get our basics done. We bless these uphill sort of days, give ourselves a hug and a kiss, a nod and a wink.

But other days we're able to strive and to seek, to dream a little or a lot. For our sandbox or the world, it's all good. We write a fairy tale and speak it as a prayer. We don't worry that someone might do something better or we're just not good enough. We remember our worth isn't attached to outcome or achievement. We stop cringing at our hope and ideas...we say yes, I will try to walk with better form, do hydro tai chi and maybe bike too.

Yes, I will try, we will try...

...to discover what is possible.

Many years ago I pulled out a lump of Play Doh, determined to make a Pillsbury Dough Boy. In those 1970s commercials he was adorably cute with his high pitched giggle, and I wanted one of my very own. After a fumbly attempt, my little girl fingers realized the futility in trying to create that guy and moved on to something else.

Now I keep this tiny baker and his cake in my office to remind me that the holy isn't in the result, it's in the trying...in the daring to see what might happen, to saying yes please, pick me, I will be a dreamer.

So will I ever climb a mountain like Rebecca Legon? Or get back into a warrior pose? I don't know...

...but I will chase after the possible for me, because we are more than enough.

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